Amm ii bii or what ?x?

Ok since I was 9 I had a relationship with a girl we did stuff , and then at 11 I did the same with another girl then 13 a different girl but just kissing. I love to watch and when I do I get so horny. I'm now 15 and I just dream about being with another girl and still watch , sometimes I wonder if I just because I get attention from girls more than boys? Please help x